Apologies for the little wait you had there between this post and the last. A few technical problems have been encountered, negotiated with, appeased, than treated with the relevant amount of contempt. A later problem forced me to plunder the depths of an Internet Café’s machine in order to provide something for entry. And, much to the denigration of my own writing skills, have produced some of the more enthusiastic responses recently. Having said all that, it was a good idea wasn’t it? Had I the time, inclination, or indeed the popularity, I might have considered pursuing the idea and encouraging others to scan saved documents on public hard drives. I might even have attempted to pen a snazzy name for aforesaid mentioned activity. Such as, oh I don’t know, “Drive Bombing”.

You can tell I’ve thought about this can’t you?

During the time between my most recent post and this I have also been facing some criticisms about this here site. Not that I have sought them; the holders of these opinions have sought me out and, to be fair, I have been interested to hear them.

The first came from a close female friend of mine who maintained that my writings here make me sound arrogant. Apparently I am much better on the telephone. Which is arguably a criticism that is not too constructive as the dynamic of a telephone conversation is far removed from the activity that is writing a piece such as this. Still, I do not think she was aiming for constructiveness but rather an excuse not to be expected to read the site. Perhaps I need to read between the lines a bit. Besides, I prefer to think of myself as condescending rather than arrogant.

One can always trust on one’s own mother to launch it down the middle of the alley though. “You need to find something to write about, it’s getting boring.” Such cheek after I linked to her site and everything!

I would counter that neither of these two dear associates have appreciated that there is a subtle philosophy behind this site. That philosophy is a bit like an Internet version of Existentialism. That is to say: I realise the pointless nature of this site in the grand scheme of things, but the grand scheme is in fact everything but a grand scheme. The Internet is a network of individuals and their opinions, basically undergoing the process of putting time in between themselves and the start of their existence. And what you see on the Internet is nothing more than the embodiment of this process. So, yes, there is pointlessness to it. But this pointlessness runs through life. We can turn our noses up at it and get all stressed trying to make profit off tech stocks, or we can revel in the futility and finally be free.

Clearly, I have selected the freedom option. Which is why you can still find me here. What my two lovely and beautiful acquaintances exhibited with their criticisms was what my fellow Existentialist and ex-Frenchman Jean Paul Sartre would have called a good old healthy bout of “Angst”: anxiety when faced with the truth of a reality void of any purpose.

Jean Paul Sartre:


But should you agree with the females do not fear (is the assertion that you are in fear hyperbolic or penetratingly accurate considering the topic at hand?), plans are afoot that will revolutionise this tiny corner of the Internet. As yet I cannot tell you what this is, but be notified that such is the enormity of this transformation it will occur only after months of planning. The first tentative steps have already been taken; the first of those months is underway.

This is not a denial of my Existentialist credentials, oh no. As you will eventually see, it will be an exercise in freedom. And when I say “freedom”, I separate it’s meaning from that banded about by annoyingly over-patriotic Americans who don’t really seem to know what it actually means. I simply claim that if you find this site boring, empty or meaningless, you might, as a result of the changes, find it more interesting, informative and, yes, even exciting. One might think that my Ma would doubtless overturn at least one death card in relation to this site. Death means change in the Tarot world: the death of one way and the birth of another. And yes, I do have plans to ask my Mum to give Charging Through The Midfield a Tarot reading. Here’s to death.



If you want to understand Existentialism, don’t look to me for an explanation you indolent sods.

You are currently on the Internet, try looking it up.

Grrrrr! Had a post all lined up on a floppy and the fucker has gone all faulty on me.

And rest assured it was the greatest piece of prose ever written by a man. I cry at this misfortune, but I at least possess a memory of the great work, whilst you, poor creatures, will never experience its influence.

However, in my determination to provide you with some sort of matter to stick your well kept - but yellowing - teeth into, I thought I'd take a look in the 'My Documents' folder on the machine I am currently on in an Internet Cafe inside the obscenity that is Elephant & Castle shopping centre and post up a bit of writing that I have found within.

And here it is in unedited format:

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What is wrong in ‘ staying home to mind baby’
All social groups have developed a division of labour by sex. Thus on the basis of sex we allocate certain roles to men and women. However there is no natural or fixed order to that division whereas the allocation of tasks varies cross culturally. Therefore when is comes to the conception of ‘Femininity’ different societies have different conceptions about what constitute ‘Femininity’ and thus allocate certain specific tasks for women.

When it comes to the women’s role of being a mother, again it’s the society which has imposed a stereotypical that a woman should be perfect mother and thus the primary responsibility of rearing a child rests on her shoulders.

Despite this motherhood mystique, today mothers are highly likely to combine mothering with paid work. Women work for different reasons varying from financial gain to personal fulfillment. Although there are both costs and benefits of being a full-time homemaker and the multiple-role potions, the cost to homemaker seems greater.

To point out the disadvantage of being a fulltime homemaker, in an interesting study of alumnae from a prestigious college, fifteen to 25 years after graduation , Judith Birnbaum (1975) compared groups of homemakers , married professionals with children and single professionals. Of the three groups homemakers had the lowest self esteem and sense of personal competence, even in the areas of child care and social skills. These women felt least attractive, expressed more concern over issues of their own identity and often indicated feeling of loneliness and isolation. They missed challenge and involvement in their lives, while insisting that mother must always put others needs ahead of their own.

Thus it is clear that there are many disadvantages of being a full-time homemaker. Here it is important to point out the advantages of being a working women.

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Interesting I think you'll agree.

But not as interesting as this document brilliantly entitled To whom concern.doc. I have blanked out the phone number to protect the innocents. That is to say, I want to stop any repercusions of idiots phoning them coming back to me, a nice innocent boy.

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To whom concern




Alexandra and I have now been happily married for over a year
“We got married 10-10-02”. Alexandra permits to stay for her first year
Runs out on 7 of January and now, she will apply for her permanent residence.

We both are visiting Colombia over the Christmas period to have our religious wedding Alexandra is going to Colombia on November to make the preparations for our wedding.

We are returning on early January. In those circumstances please could you ground Alexandra residence permit now, so we can deal whit this chive in good time if you need speak to me could call me in day time to my office 0207xxxxx00



Yours sincerely

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Yet none can beat car.doc:

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